Let My Family Have They'Re Daughter Poem by Autumn Christina Adair

I’ve loved twice in my short life
And I’ve been abandoned twice aswell
My little heart has broken down and it cant take no more
My cries fall on ignorant ears
Do they not hear or just choose to avoid?
Loneliness imprisons my mind
Depression is my only friend
The cabinet in the kitchen is where I should head
Would they even notice me gone, would they care?
I don’t know who I cry for anymore, I just want to rest
When I go to sleep, I dream of them
That haunting, taunting tone
I’ll never escape its wrath, its my ball and chain
I could end it whenever and I don’t know why I don’t
This pain is like a hot knife being dragged through my body
Im chained to the table and cannot run or hide
My skin tears everytime I try
I see they’re shadows laughing and pointing
I’ve been strong for so long but now im weak
Every ounce of strength sucked from my body
Every little piece of hope I had left, destroyed
Every feeling of love I held, gone
Im a body with no soul and no faith, just barely alive
I want to live but I don’t know how