If I Have Nothing To Give Poem by Iris Mista

So sad and deeply lonely
If there was someone only
To love and need me
For without I can not be

I am not able to only take
Solely living for my own sake
To live without any use
Smothered heart of past abuse

No one there with me to share
no real trust for my care
Oh, for I do always wrong
Or saying my words too strong

I have no other way to be
The change they want to see
No understanding what they ask
To make me suitable for the task

In my heart a big black hole
Forever a disabled soul
Leaving me in real loneliness
Of living my very uselessness

No reason for me to stay
For I’ll never find the way
How people want me to be
And in worthlessness no me

So I ask this world, understand
I go down and now I bent
If I have nothing to give
I no longer want to live

November 30th,2013