I Wish I Didn'T Care Poem by Paula Glynn

I wish I didn't care,
I wish I could walk coldly away,
With no price to pay.

I wish my heart was cold,
I wish I was stone,
And could see the suffering,
Without tears or pain.

I wish I could leave,
The losers and the fools,
Lying on the ground,
To suffer a fate so cruel.

I wish I could see blood,
And not cringe,
And not feel it,
As if it was my own blood,
As this is so,
For a heart without love.

I wish I could see the smokers,
And laugh at them,
Or see the drug addicts,
And never myself be dependant.

I wish I could be,
A bull in a china shop,
Loud and without guilt,
I would say the truth,
And be blunt and straight forward,
Not caring about other's feelings.

I would only care about myself,
For having a conscience is a pest,
My goals and ambitions,
Not up to someone else.

I wouldn't care who was my enemy,
I'd laugh as I passed them by,
For I would never,
Lie on the ground and cry.

I'd get up and fight,
I'd be worldly wise,
Not caring who my friends were.

I'd get out of bed for myself,
I'd have enormous wealth,
With work achievements,
And would be in excellent health.

This is who I'd be,
A kickboxer, a ninja,
A fighter, a white lighter,
Working on my own,
Following my own agenda.

I'd be best friends with myself,
Mocking those pleasers and users,
And I'd teach them a lesson.

But my heart would be big,
For those who committed no crime,
People who never wasted my time,
And who understood,
My soul was a mirror.