I Wish I Were In Heaven Poem by Paula Glynn

I'd die to be in heaven
I would search the ends of the earth
I would search through time
I would search through the universe
To find the mysterious place
Every religion calls heaven

Where this strange place is
I will never know in this life
Maybe my soul cursed
To suffer having blood
To suffer pain of all kinds
The human condition being what it is

I know how I was created
But where I was before I do not know
And maybe it is best to not know
Secrets of the soul
Best kept as secrets to the world

But I do feel love
I do have affection and respect for others
I do know to never break the rules
Knowledge from somewhere
Before being born this person
Wherever that place was
Only memories of strange darkness

I see a world that cries at night
A world people born to suffer in
A world similar to the devil's hell
Perhaps life written by the devil
Every suicide the devil's work
Where he watches the weak hurt

I know I am no different to others
My heart without any lovers
My heart yearning for love
My heart yearning for care
My heart yearning for affection
My heart empty of that special someone

But I go to church and pray
I find enlightenment with every day
The sun rising me in the morning
And the moon helping me sleep at night
My life changing and becoming
A spiritual journey to redemption

And I do repent against hell
I know I feel much better without its pain
I feel much better without the heat
I feel much better without the pressure
I feel much better without the blood
I feel much better without the fear

I look to the sunshine blue sky
Seeing angels sleep on white clouds
Knowing I can be one of them
And find heaven where I've been all along:
Earth

Because I had been blind
But now I see the treasured white light
Knowing I am no longer blind
And become thoughtful
Caring and always kind.