I'm Broken Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

Look for that special connection.
Please forgive me if I say you just don't fit.
It's not something you did or didn't.
My heart is just so fickle, so hard to satisfy.
With so many goodbyes.
It shouldn't come as surprise.
Looking into these dead brown eyes.
Crushed, will I ever be able to love someone the way I did you.
From the moment we meant, till the day in which tears were wept.
Gone is a piece of my soul I now fear I will never get back.
No matter the windows I open, the air still doesn't flow.
Suffocation.
Every single day.
This hole continues getting deeper and darker.
And there is no escape I can see.
I can never relate.
Not to the life, I once had.
A fiery blaze leaves me in a cloudy haze.
Dazed, my body moves but I just don't know what to do.
Depression, a cycle that repeats.
Twisting me into pieces.
The dish rag is falling apart.
Used and abused.
A bitter tasting stew.
That was my favorite.
But now it's just bland as all the rest.
There is nothing left to confess.
The body dead and buried.
Decaying six feet under a head stone with name and date.
Remembering what I don't want.
Distant are the flashes.
With a dull knife, they are still stabbing me.
The crucible of my pain.
A horse with a bad leg.
Yes he has went lame.
Yes he will never be the same.
Wanting to run, wanting to feel that wind in my face headlong.
But every time I try something inside dies.
The clouds, and sun have abandon these clear blue skies.
Void are the paintings, of what once was my inspiration.
The driving force behind every word.
Sharpening the sword, readying it for this world once more.
Finally I am closing that door, only to realize it doesn't exist anymore.
So I sit here savoring the last little bit of scotch I have poured.
Because its already gone, the dancing fawn.
The many movements of the pawns.
All with purpose.
To which I serve, to which I deserve, to which I preserve.
Dead are my nerves.
Phantom pain to the missing limbs.
A name comes to my mind where are you Kim?
You fixed me once before.
Gave me the support I needed.
Like family is suppose too.
Missing you my dear sister.
I know you are still out there somewhere.
I hope to see you soon.