'I'M A Mum Of Two! ' Poem by Rachel Loveday

With my daughter in her pushchair
I walk on through the park
'How old is she? ' A stranger asks
and the conversation starts

I don't mind if you talk to me
But inside I could burst
'please God don't let her ask me
if this baby is my first'

Should I just be honest
Is this only fair?
Or will the awkward silence
be far too much to bare?

'Please God don't let her ask me
if I plan to have another'
To see my next, as my second
hurts me as a mother

Don't talk about your pregnant friend
'she's thirteen weeks today'
Don't say 'she's passed the risk stage
And all will be ok'

These nieve words, strike up fear
within my very soul
I can hear my own voice saying this
All those years ago.

I don't mind if you talk to me
but be careful if you do
My first baby sleeps in heaven
I'm an angel mummy too

A proud mum to BOTH my children
But labelled 'mum of one'
A hurt that doesn't lessen
As the years go on

A Group of angel mummies
know exactly how I feel
But they also know I'm 'mum of two'
and keep my angel real

30/10/09

(new baby after loss of another child)