Guilt Poem by kristin foster

My eyes water with guilt it keeps happening over and over and i keep blaming myself like i was there all along. Sometimes i wake up and wonder if she is over going to be by my side and love me like i love her.. I like to have her in my life but then again is she going to be in mine? ? Why do i feel like this? why do i keep blaming myself.. Who is going to be my supporter? Who is going to be there? i WANT my mom to be there. when i see her i cry when i talk of her i cry.. when i say i love her i cry.. Everyone thinks im EMO.. but they dont know what ive been threw and what im going threw.. Why am i breaking into pieces.? Why is my life hell? How could i change how i feel? what could i do? whoever is out there please listen.. i NEED you mom. i LOVE you! ! what did i do to hurt like this?