Contradiction Feelings Poem by Sahra Hussein

I don't know how long I will live in this life
I don't know how long it will last, this dream
I stare at stars but I can't feel their heat.
I can't stare at the sun but I can feel its ray I can't reach you even if I spread my winds When I close my eyes, I can see you
But when I open my eyes you disappear
Why were you ever part of my life
when you can't be there for me?
Why do you make me to love you?
When there is a distance between us.
Why did you make me laugh?
When you later made me cry
why did you protect me
when you hurt me after I fell for you?
My feelings are a contradiction
I don't want you but I need you
I hate you but I love you more