Burning Bridges Poem by Ashley Bachtel

I'm so sick and tired of all this pain
of all loss and no gain, waiting for change
My heart breaks whenever I think of my past
I'm tired of trying to make happy memories that I know won't last.
I've grown weary and weak over all these rocky years
and I've built a moat using my own tears
keeping people away, building up walls
quickly rebuilding them each and every time one falls
I try to build bridges, but they just end up burning
but what I truly want is to satisfy my yearning
the yearning for love, the yearning for faith
noone to save me, or to keep me safe
I set fire to everything, and no not by choice
when it comes to my life it seems I have no voice
it all goes wrong, nothing goes right
I only see darkness when searching for light
My life is complex, a fight full of ridges
I wish I could find a way to stop burning bridges.