Beloved Villain Poem by angelica arroyo

Who knew that i would be the villain in your story and who knew you were going to play the villain in mine.
I never meant to hurt you. My actions were never illintended. And as i tried to do good it all back fired. It all burned my skin and irritated my eyes to the point that i felt like i did wrong, but i dont think i did.
But you! you! you hurt me intentionally and untinetionally. you said that you tried to leave silently but you really didnt. You came into the home we built and you broke the pictures on the walls and beat me with all my vulnerabilities. You burned the house down as i laid on the bed we slept on. You tried to KILL me, but how can i blame you.
You said it yourself, "youre the worst thing that could have happened! "
And if you said that then it must be true.
If i have hurt you more than anyone then i deserve to be killed, right?
I deserve the pain that has been inflicted. I am not human. Maybe i am a creature burden to walk this earth as a reminder that the disturbing things in life i withhold. And maybe you showed me that i dont deserve the sun to kiss my skin, the wind to blow my hair, i am NOT a camellia but a weed. But i was delusional. delusional that i was capable to be loved, understood, wanted, maybe you gave me hope that i was a person meant to shine. Yet, i am not.
you also included you are 1,000 times happier now that you have left. Honestly, I am happy you found that happiness because that is all i ever wanted. I wanted you to be happy. So, i am here and i apologize for the things i never intended. I know you will never read these words and i know if you ever did it wouldnt faze you. But as i try to walk away from the ashes of my ruins, i hope you are happy and you continue to be happy. Since, i could not provide you with the happiness that you gave me i wish the sun to kiss your skin, i hope the wind blow your hair, i hope the moon continues to smile back at you, the stars guide your soul, and that you know you deserve to be loved, to be heard and understood, and you deserve to be an everlasting camellia with all the beauty it withholds. I hope you know that you are human and because you are a human you are able to provide the beautiful things in this world but also dispense misseries and pains. You are human capable of the best and the worst, so I have already forgiven you, my villain.