angelica arroyo

I know that I let you get away but...
You are a childhood memory that still roams through my head.
You accepted me and didn't question all my quirks.
You let me spill all my sob stories.
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My arms are inside in my clothes.
My tongue stuck between my teeth.
I’m not use to being here!
My life is sucking my mind.
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I fell no one picked me up.
I thirst no one gave me water.
Well now it is the end.
Now you will fall, scar, thirst, and I won’t help for no love to give, for no pity.
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Little girl talk about yourself…
Little girl: Well... okay... if you really want to know.
I was born in a world to a life that I didn’t want. I’m a little girl that acts big to let people that I’m not scared, but I am as more afraid as you.
I will yell lauder than you, but I yell into my pillow. I cry a lot more, but I cry blood off my wrist, and I fall as hard as you but I just I cover up my wounds.
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If I ever leave it is not for your benefit, it is for mine.
If you ever hurt because of me then forgive me.
If I ever let go it is because I'm scared.
I'm not scared to be let go but held.
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Started all from a seed planted inside of the care of a mother.
Not many men take it upon themselves to stay; mostly, if not a great population of 'boys' leave a mother to be a hero.
Not this one. He was ready to become a father.
A father is not the man who conceives a child but the one that fosters him or her.
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Who knew that i would be the villain in your story and who knew you were going to play the villain in mine.
I never meant to hurt you. My actions were never illintended. And as i tried to do good it all back fired. It all burned my skin and irritated my eyes to the point that i felt like i did wrong, but i dont think i did.
But you! you! you hurt me intentionally and untinetionally. you said that you tried to leave silently but you really didnt. You came into the home we built and you broke the pictures on the walls and beat me with all my vulnerabilities. You burned the house down as i laid on the bed we slept on. You tried to KILL me, but how can i blame you.
You said it yourself, "youre the worst thing that could have happened! "
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I know that you are sad, even when you smile!
Look at me, I try to smile; I try find the bright side.
Hope this is happening for a reason...
Wish this could be a dream.
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