Back When Poem by Camille Jones

at one time
love flutter in my head
the time with late night talks
and happy days
now these days
suicide flutters in my head
I think only
10 more pills and
one more cut
I won’t
let them try and fix
me I’m not broken
I go in the past
every once in awhile
I lay and watch
the time go by
and the past fade
I wish I was
back when
I stayed up late talking
and when I had happy days
but now
I stay up late crying
and have sad days
I sit and I
stew about my past
and I hope my future
isn’t like that
so now that my
late night talks
and my happy days
are all faded
I just sit
and I vibe
and hope one day
I’ll be over it all
all the late night talks
and happy days