Addressed To Be Kept...Wished Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I write from an experienced perspective.
When gathering my thoughts to expose publicly,
What it is I regard as important to us all.
However...
Attempts to be objective while remaining receptive,
And not reflect upon something that has occurred in my life...
Personally,
For me...
I admit,
Is an impossibility.

I am emotionally connected, affected and involved.
With 'every' aspect of my life.
To say I participate in the living of my life specifically,
For recreational purposes,
Would be for me admitting of caring less...
Who I have sex with.
As long as my own satisfaction is addressed to impress,
I accept that with a moving on.
I've never been like that.
In fact...the last time my toes curled it was 10 degrees outside.
And the wind chill factor was minus...something.

Can you feel me?
The only time I do anything recreational is when I master...
The baiting of the right words to express my thoughts.
Can you feel me?
I want to entertain AND be profound.

And when I write from an experienced perspective,
My observations are more compassionately expressed...
Than what I do privately with kept wishes to leave unconfessed.
Yet...
My personal desires are not left to be less.
And with myself addressed to be kept...wished!
With a doing I 'try' to keep respectful, above board and uncensored.
Even though I still have hopes someone comes prepared to feel me.