Dead to me.
Like your words become.
Still reaching for your silence.
Look at me. Look.
Screaming through worldly barriers
with the mentality
'The wings of a butterfly
can cause a cyclone'
Hoping you'll hear me from the other side.
Wanting you to hear me.
And you've shut me off completely.
My ears ringing painfully with the echo of my own voice.
Drowning in sorrow and self-pity.
One phrase could have changed my life.
Now a self-patterned destruction
leaves me endlessly searching
in the distance.
The Holy Grail of Enlightment.
Peace, or love. Fulfill me.
Something like that.
Addict to the search,
it becomes
a bloodletting of the soul
to cleanse a wound that was never there.
Light becoming so pure
it burns me.
Rubbing myself raw
to erase what I have been.
I don't know what's sadder.
Desperately trying to fill a void
Or pretending it doesn't exist at all
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem