Michael Murphy

distraught
why do women lie?
why are people in general so f**king deceitful?
why after so many times of being lied to and s**t on do i refuse to see the truth when it is right between my eyes?
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I would do anything to hear your voice again son
to hear you say you love me I love you more than anyone
baby you can trust me your what makes my heart beat
your the air that keeps me breathing never stop believing
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What do you say when your loves stripped away?
As you choke on the tears left behind
-and where do you go to fill up a hole that leaves you hollow inside?
And who do you blame when the guilt and the shame that you carry eats you alive-
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she comes to me every night into my dreams, .. the same as the night be-fore

dressed up she dances and sings all here words to me so presish and sweet
she is the one I adore...
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..the beauty that appears to the eyes it's pretend....
it's the comfort inside that i long in the end....
the paint it will peel and the the skin it will flake
yet if built up correctly our bricks will not break
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each day that passes by
reminds me constantly just how I try
to overcome my adversities & numb thing that're hurtin me
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I'M I FIXABLE... OR INVINCEABLE?
SHOULD I FIGHT A LOSING BATTLE OUT OF PRINCIPAL?
THE PAIN MAKES THE NUMBING IRRESISTABLE...
BUT WAKING UP MAKES IT ALL MORE DIFFICULT
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p****d off
hate you..can't stand you
can't believe i couldn't see or understand you
gave my heart to you and in return you create pain
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My son your the reason...why I'm so alive...
I see all the love in this world when I look in your eyes...
the day you were born was the day I realize...
that being a daddy's the most precious thing that could ever occur in my life...
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all i need is one more jolt to give this beat down man a push
I'll ride the wave, hide in caves, if I could I would
I walk the streets so normally I'll stare a crazy gaze
my thoughts are not all innocent as I stumble through this haze
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these times are hard... I gotta try
think I am down to my last goodbye
this has to change it isn't yesterday
I'm chasing a ghost I will never slay
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you own your own..you sound alone..
no possessions to call your own..
the thoughts you share that life's unfair..
it rains everyday.. and nobody cares...
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....there's a girl whos like a diamond in a cold dark world..
more precious than a string of pearls..
and they way that she makes me feel..
feels so damn real...
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all this blood, all these tears..
all this pain from all these years
all my love all turned to hate
reverse the curse... it's much too late
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these eyes of mine stare endlessly
into what some might call my fantasies
theoretically speaking I've been on my knees,
begging someone please..take this pain from me
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The sun is like a soul shining bright into the air
the ones whom lost control has blinded light to those who care
these guns they rip a hole into the night... produces fear
and shuns the hopes and goals and ignites the endless tears
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I am a child never grown a timid six year old boy..
scared to live, scared to die, scared to ever let it go
all the love is stripped away all the pain is left behind
I self destruct, I never learn, I'll probably grow old alone
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she blows me away with how she preforms
although she is scared from her pain she still weathers the storms
she inspires my fire unlike any has before
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In a world that's so jaded
and so complicated
is a girl so amazing and so captivating
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