Why Do Women Lie Poem by Michael Murphy

distraught
why do women lie?
why are people in general so f**king deceitful?
why after so many times of being lied to and s**t on do i refuse to see the truth when it is right between my eyes?

i miss my son so much... the more the days go by the more i realize 85% of all the arguments i had with my ex were made up or inflated for alterior motives...
knowing what i know now i can't allow myself to get close to anyone... people are s**t

'what i thought was true before were lies i couldn't see'
its harder to live with the truth about you then to live with the lies about me
lies that you've told to keep yourself in control
has dismantled my heart and has blackened my soul
each day that goes by brings more tears to these eyes
oh how i miss my son garret i never did say goodbye
these nightmares i live each day i am left here to weep
the only time i escape is the seldom time that i sleep
as i dream of my son playing games as we laugh
as we sing along to songs he is all that i have
then i wake to realize it was all just a dream
as i relive in my head all these lost memories
as she said it 's my fault.. i now learn she deceived
all the blame and the shame that she conceived me believe
so selfish and cold like these late autumn days
i am lost in my self walking round in a haze
i don't care you moved on, i don't mind your content
what i mind is the lies you've told me and told them
so i now try to hold on to unsanctioned faith
that my son will forgive me for the lies his mom made
i am broken and bruised I'm so lost and confused
nothing means anything i don't know what else to do
all that i know is it's harder each day
to wake from these dreams where my son and i play
i miss you so much it hurt more than you know
your daddy he loves you though you might not think so
i would call you each day if someone allowed me to say
that i love so and yearn to be near you someday
i won't tell you lies maybe that's why she 's scared
to allow you and i to be close once again
i think of you constantly your my life your my soul
i am sorry it's like this i lost all control