Max D. Hornbogen

Dad, can you hear me? It’s me max. You left me when I was just little and now I am a young man.

Why did you have to leave me Dad? Ever since I’ve been so sad.
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Look in the sky, I think its a bird a plane. No It's superman.
And if you had my vision you'll see the purple haze in the sky.

So look in the sky, my friend you will start seeing things that are not there.
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I will not die here today; I still got to hang on to my life.
I got to be alive for my children. Maybe even watch them grow.

But when I look in their eyes, they make me kind of sad.
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This is a poem about where I lived and about what happened in my life. For those who don’t know, My dad died when I was little. He died in a car accident. I was 6 or 7 years of age at the time.

There's a view where everything is so clear and the weather is so beautiful and the air is so fresh and the grass is so soft and the sand is harm to. The lake was so gentle that it could look like a glass and the sun is shining on me and that’s when I get a harm feeling from it, that’s when I can tell that this day will always be remembered. Now the day is getting closer to the end and soon the sun will go down (when the sun goes down) . Now take away the pain and let me feel free like a bird in the sky. Now the next day came, then I looked up and saw the sun about to rise then I said 'it’s going to be nice again'. Oh yes the lake, the sky and the birds are singing in the summer time. As I lay here under the stars and drifting away to a dream that is going to be a state of mind. And as I come back I’ll say that I was in heaven and when that sun goes down I’ll just think of tomorrow may come. When I think of things in life I know that everything will be deep down inside of me, that’s when I can recall the memories that I will have. Now the stars are up and I'm going to think of a place where I can fly away, but soon I’ll be back. When the next day came I’ll know that I will think of yesterday and how much fun it was. I remember when I was a kid I use to live on a street that was use to be called memory lane but now the memories still lives on. In this heart of mine I’ll know that there is someone that I miss the most and I think you know who that is. But when that sun goes down I’ll be thinking of things that I’ve done in my life. Now this life of mine still goes on and many more pictures that I will frame. But those pictures will have meaning and moments that will always be remembered. I’ll know that my brother and my sister still have room in their hearts for me. And that is called love and that’s why we look after one another cause we know that life itself has a lot of special moments that it brings to us. But we also miss and think of dad all the time, but that he raised just wonderful kids. His love for us will never fade cause he’s in our thoughts all the time and always thinking what it could be like if he was here. Now let the sun go down one more time and let many more memories be in our lives and always take pictures and then put them In a frame and hang them on the wall.
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Sunlight is coming from my window and now I feel the air coming
through.

The feeling from the warmness is getting to me, yeah I feel the summer breeze.
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Well what I see, is the sun light in your eyes and they seem to keep me on my toes. So everywhere I go, I see that the sun light is there to remind me of you. The life I had once before, is all gone. Now all I got to do, is to move on. Because you know everyday of my life is a struggle. Imagine what I could had become, a man with a life... maybe a different life time.
Seeing you is all I have. And you are my sun light every where I go. Every time I walk these streets at night, it just reminds me of the past. Now that life is long gone, no more going back to the streets. I just want to move on with life. And see what happens down the road ahead of me.

But now the only thing that is keeping me going, is you. The sun light is only a part of living, that Is what I intend to do.
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Well I wish it was true and that your lies are pathetic and unworthy, don’t even try to cover up the truth. In this lifetime I had to give up the things that I had loved, so I wish it was true. That it could have been a time of youth and long past memories that had gone by. But I wish it was you that took me away from the pain that I had. Could you ever bear the pain that I had, or even trying to be me. So I wish it was true, that it was you that took away the pain. So I’ll let myself loose one more time and try to unwind. Now everything seems so clear as if it was a big blue sky. Maybe I’ll try to be what I’m supposed to be and try to unclutter bad thoughts out of my head. Now there’s a open road with new thoughts and new memories ahead of me, so I’m going to take this chance to start something new.

Jan 9th,2008
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The last time I saw you, I was a child walking on the floor. And you still had your two feet on the ground. But each highway brings back a memory from the past. I know now that you were there for me when I needed you, but now and then I would cry for you. Knowing that you were there by my side. I wish I could had said “goodbye” but I knew you had a smile on your face when you left. The last time I saw you, I was a child walking on the floor. And you still had your two feet on the ground. Now each memory of you brings back special moments of life. But still I was a child and you had your two feet on the ground. That each time I Walked for you, you would pick me up and say “ everything will be ok “

Fathers day poem to dad
June 15th 2008
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I want you to be here, would you come down from the heavens and to be here with me.
Seeing your smile would mean a lot to me, so would you please stand right next to me.

Well I want you to be here with me. Would you even take me to the roads of life & maybe to see what’s ahead of my future?
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I am close to you, I am the warmest part of your heart...I will never leave you.
It seems like your always by my side. You are a part of me, I will never ever leave you behined.

Still I have a picture of you, you seem to make me smile whenever I look at you.
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Well forever is a long time when you are gone and all the things are changing so fast, just like a blink of an eye. There are so many times that I wanted to say hi but I guess that the wind will carry it to you, oh how long has it been since I’ve last seen you but I could only look at an image of you (but I guess that will do) . And sometimes I look at the clouds that remind me of you but I know that I must go on. But forever is way to long for me, how can I go thru this and that it was you that made me turn around and to start looking at the clouds. But now the four winds are telling me to on thru my journey and to live on with my life but forever is a long time.

Max Hornbogen
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I see life passing by my eyes, oh how I wish to be flying.
These wings will take me away, to the place where I belong.

Only if you knew what I'd done you'll see that I will have to fly away,
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Can you see the light in front of you; can you feel the earth underneath your feet?

Can I see your face one more time, just to capture that frame in time?
Do you feel the air moving around you, did you know that it was you that made me cry?
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When I looked in your eyes, it nearly took me off of my feet.
Did you think that love had a part to play in?
Do you think you could just let love go.
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You know it’s the little things that make me happy, I enjoy the moments
I have with you. So just give me a smile just for now.

I will always love you dearly; you know I am in your heart.
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You know that day when you left me it made my heart crying that it was broken into. But when my heart collides with you it just seems like it will never end, so I might just go on with my day. Now and then I’ll cry for you just because I love you, but then I will always be there for you. When my heart collides with you it just seems like it will never mend, but maybe the love is still there? Well I hope that you are still here, and then if that’s true, then I must know that the love is still here between us.


Max D. Hornbogen
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She was a girl that had a smile and then I saw the light in her eyes. Oh, did you know that she
had a smile as crooked as a lie. Every time I saw her she had a smile upon her face.

She was a girl that almost had me. But I refused, to be with her. Her smile would only make me look the other way. So I walked away, just pretending that nothing had happened.
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