Kai Ford

Tasting the pinkness of your lips as they yield a ripe nectar all their own
The stamp of your fingerprints cover my skin
There isn't a place unexplored on this map
Eyes locked leads to the intermingling of desires
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12: 40am 11/25
This feeling has a name
One that forms on the tip of my tongue
But the muzzle of hope prevents me from uttering the letters
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The scenario plays itself to the best of perfections
You're sitting there beside me
Blue eyes ablazed in the most aquatic way
Your heart &mind exposed to it's most amorous capacity
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So...this part of my life seems a bit puzzling like a jigsaw
I am one piece and I know at some point I will have the other joined to me
to complete this wondrous picture created by the Father
I thought it was he but from the interaction w/he, my corners have lifted
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Years, weeks, seconds never to be experienced again flooded my consciousness
I shuttered at the thought of your love's absence
Disbelief married with fear silenced me
In that instant, all I desired was a hope, not the truth.
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What do I do with these receipts of
Time spent?

In tallying them, I noticed I spent more than I thought.
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Raised voices bring forth an awareness of your inner being
The meant to be's seem to fade faster than my anger
I suppress my doubts to cling to my hope
The hope of the used to be's and the hope of what could've been
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The scared look in your eyes gives to an awareness uncontemplated
You DO know her
My heart crumbles as I plead for you to confess your love for no one but me
All while the truth heads like a teenager's pimple
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I'mawalkingknot
developedfromaconcretejunglesrelentlessrigor
Inpartfromholdingdesignerpursesonmyshoulders, filledw/myportfolio, waterbottle, handsanitizer.metrocard&suchandsuch
allwhiletravelinginandoutofsubwaycarstocastings, shiningbrightatauditionsandexecutingjobsthrouttheapple
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Unspoken, support, covered, lies
Twisted, reality, truth, arise

Sealed, tears, emerge
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3: 20 and up to pee
Miss you but not enough to text you,
though that would be what what either of us would normally do.
Want to hear your voice but not enough to call.
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Betrayed me with a kiss like Judas
You..knowingly formed lips that puckered
Lies and selfish deceit
Seeking to only please your heart and wandering eyes
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I stand so far yet so close to you
A visible walkway before us
Tree-lined with our mistakes&lessons from our individual pasts
Though timid of the unknown destination it leads to
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You can never miss what you never had they say
So how could I realistically miss you?
And if you always want what you don’t have
Why don’t you miss me?
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i could swallow you in my love
i could swallow you; -)
i could dress you up in my love
i could undress you.
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But what do you want?
Endless nights of pondering
Persuasive thoughts of the ‘when's, where’s, & 'how’s”?
Seemingly you find comfort in the cons&despise the pros
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Multiple times a day, I will cross your mind.
Flashing cranial photographs taken further embed my presence in your world
Snaps of my air kiss given to you via ichat, of my perky breasts
Of my open mouth when you're purposely nice-nasty, of my tossled hair
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Repeated persistence of your question reminds me of the ancient Chinese torture
Drip-drop, drip-dropp in the center of my forehead
As it bores thru my consciousness
The sound of your raised voice beginning to bury
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As I wipe the salty tear from my eye
my heart sends a message to my brain to create a new one
It slowly slides down my yellow cheek to the corner of my pink Chapsticked lips
The same lips you kissed knowing the fine mess you were creating
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