Jessica Stubbs

When I need words most
The seem to drift away
My brain as their host
Doesn't know the right words to say
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I'm sick of being awake
Gotta keep going for Mom's sake
Sit on the porch and have a smoke
Just wish I'd go ahead and croak
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Let's go back in time
You and I
Let's go back when I was still okay
And the world was still a beautiful place
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Don't judge my face
Don't judge my age
I'm here for a reason
So don't go startin any treason
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Guess I'm another year older
And these shoulders have grown colder
I don't always mean to be such a pessimist
It all just comes out that way
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It's starting again
Thought I'd get better
But,
It's starting again
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I like the sound of rebellion
Of people speaking up for what they believe in
Of people being who they are
Taking themselves far
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To all the lonely people
Who feel like they're waiting for the Reaper
Who feel like they don't belong
And your life is another sad song
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Look at what I've done
Look at what I've become
Do you remember who I used to be?
Cause I don't, I don't remember me
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I own the Night
The Moon and the Stars are mine
Oh, it is a lovely sight
I feel so alive
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The way it was
Was never really a way
It was just what I was used
How I got through the day
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Wandering in the dark
Feeling miles apart
From anyone here
Nobody i'll let near
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Waiting for the storm to roll in
I found a feeling deep within
A little bit of pain and beauty
All mixed together and flowing through me
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Why do I feel doomed
The clouds hanging over my head are full of gloom
Misery is my mind
I'm so far behind
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Little paws tapping the floor
little paws clawing on the door
little paws where did you go
little paws i miss you so
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I walk in the night
I take in the sights
I listen to the sound
Of the howling of the hounds
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It's a blunt knife
That's digging into me
Makes it hard to get through the night
So black, I can't see
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It's a cold bitter rain
It matches the pain
look inside of myself and what do I find
A thousand memories I can't leave behind
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I don't leave home
I haven't talk to my friends in over a year
I live my days alone
Stuck inside with this fear
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Figure in the mirror
Staring at me
Unsettling
Eyes sunken in
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