Heart of Ice Die Die Die

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Well, if u've read any of poetry u can tell that i'm clinically depressed and probably should be medicated.... oh well. no need to involve doctors right? who likes them anyways? i probably could be considered bi polar as well and probably should be medicated for that as well. but, once again, no one likes doctors. filthy lablers. i'm just a girl trying to live to see tomorrow and keep putting on a fake smile in the morning for the world around me to see. don't drown. I've never complimented myself. I HATE MYSELF I don't know what PERFECT means. Who are you and why are you reading my profile? You may never understand ME. I live for writing. My life is music. My family is the only reason I'm still alive. In my book, friends are family. So don't screw them over. I trust hard, love easily. My trust was broken long ago, I'll never recover. My dad isn't in the picture. My step-dad, ... bi-polar is the word to describe him. My momma tries, but she's tired. I'm the oldest of eight. Matthew, Dylan, (not my mom's) Dylan, (not my mom's, yes, two Dylan's) Ryan, not my mom's, Mitchell, not my sperm doner's, Fara, not my mom's. Rhyanna, not my sperm doner's. I consider most of my friends my brothers or sisters. I'll always be there for you if you decide you need me there. I'd die for a complete stranger. I would bear your pain and never let you feel a thing if I could. I hate to see other's hurt. It hurts me to HATE. I AM EMO! I've been on the knife since I was eleven. I'll be fourteen in October. Don't call me a kid, because I was never a child. I grew up in the ghetto, life was hard, it still is, and I regret nothing. I will never change for another person again. Suicide is only the beginning. I've seen the fires of hell, and I'll go back again for my family. I hate America. I'm anti-establishment. I was raised by hippiez. Don't hate man! The term 'WEIRD' is and UNDERSTATEMENT. I'm not your standard TEENAGE BARBIE DOLL. I love colorz! I love smilez! I love the letter z! I don't know what LOVE is anymore. But I'm willing to love you! I will never ever be NORMAL! I don't want to hurt anymore, but I'll suffer through. I sound doom and gloom, but really, that's just my split personality talking to you! I have mini warz in my head with myself! I have multiple personalities... BEWARE! I dyed my hair PURPLE! And I'm gunna do it again... as soon as I bleach my hair without frying it all out. I have my cartilidge pierced and my bottomz pierced. I'm going to get another set on my bottomz next. I LOVE ALL THINGZ TATTOO AND PIERCING! I'm easily irritated, I get hurt easy. I've been called every name in the book. So, if you want to try it. Go for it. Nothing can be worse than where I've been. So F*CK the world. I love people, J but I HATE them even more! I love people watching. It's a hobby. Like right now I'm watching you through your window and I'd just like to say: THAT'S DISGUSTING! Just kidding! That's totally normal at your age! JOKE! Or am I? I've become bored with the normal cutz so I've taken to carving wordz into my skin. So far I've done: ALONE on my left thigh right in the middle. Hate Me on my left thigh on the inner part. Please? on my right hip just above my jeanz. Kill Me right under where my bikini ridez. And a lil' heart on my right ankle. Above where Kill Me used to be it says I♥ U That's all I've done so far. I do a lot of babysitting, and I love little kidz and babiez! Tommorrow I get to see my baby Olivia! Well, she's not technically mine. But sometimez, it feelz that way. I haven't seen her since the last week of school. I AM EMO A SISTER A FRIEND A MOMMY (to some) MISUNDERSTOOD BEAUTIFUL UGLY CONTRADICTORY INSANE CU-RAAAZY! COMPLICATED HURT WEIRD WACKY A WINTERGIRL DEATH'S LITTLE MESSENGER GIRL AND ALL VARIATIONZ OF THE COLOR ... yellow! (which is why itz pink) A PROVERB A? CONFUSING A SQUIRREL ANOREXIC ABUSED THE CENTER OF EVERY RUMOR I AM ... (wait for it) ... (any minute now) ... (dramatic pause) ... ME!)

The Best Poem Of Heart of Ice Die Die Die

I'M Telling You This Now

I'm tired
and I'm hurt.
I can feel the tear in my heart
spreading farther
and farther.
The depression
is deep inside my veins.
So deep that I don't need a reason to be sad anymore,
I just am.
My charade is slipping, falling
people are starting to see through
finally.
They're realizing I'm not as happy
as they always thought I was.
I've stopped caring
as much as I used to.
I want to curl up in a ball
in my own secluded section of depression,
of hell
and stay there forever.
People are seeing
that the smile
I used to plaster on my face
every morning
has worn thin
and almost disappeared.
People are starting to notice
the red marks
peeking out from the shoulder of my sleeve.
And...
I just don't care.
Yes,
I hear their whispers.
Yes,
their whispers hurt.
No,
I'm not going to do anything about it.
No,
I'm not goind to give them the satisfaction
of knowing they hurt me.
And I myself
have realized
I'm not as strong as I would like to be.
My heartbeat faint
my pencil strokes light,
I'm writing this to tell you,
I'm not worth waiting for.
Nobody could be worse than I am right now.
I'm cold with depression
and who wants that in their life?
I'm sorry that I can't leave your lives completely
but, I'll try to make myself
small and unnoticeable.
That's my promise to you,
I know it's small.
But maybe,
just maybe
it'll make up for it a little bit.

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