Emma R. Kessler

I started smoking right when I lost you.
I'm not sure why I picked it up.
But I know why I'd continue,
It was a pain that I could kill
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I'm so lonely
Without you baby
No one tells you that if you're falling in love
You have to fall into something
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Does he tell her about me?
And what does he say?
Does he say, 'I just don't want a relationship these days? '
Or does he say, 'I'm in love with a girl with deep eyes? '
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My hair is tangled up
From you laying me down
Pulse and a thump
Blood in my neck: pound
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One time it's a mistake.
Two times it's a habit.
This time
I couldn't even feel it.
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Relapse
Slip back
Holding the pillows
I joke if you tease me about sleeping well alone
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And it only gets harder with every goodbye
God knows with every leaving I've cried
But it's alright
If I'm so lucky, I might see you tonight
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That little sleepy eyed look you get
When I kiss your neck
How your hands grab my hips
Can't get words past your lips
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If you've had Jack to back you up as you sat in an empty room,
Nicotine buzz hanging over you.
If you've slid to sleep on a pill assisted peace,
I'm sorry for you girl cause the same hurt is killing me.
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