I'm hurting inside
I know what I have to do
It is my addiction
I cant help but not to do it
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Feeling the pain make me feel good
Seeing the blood all over again
Makes me feel happy once again
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As I sit in the shower
With the scolding hot water running on my back
I see the blood go down the drain
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My heart is pounding
I cant stop thinking about him
I cant stop thinking that he probably aint ever going to come back
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I sit here in the darkness
Just thinking about all of the things that are going on
I cant always handle what I think about
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I can feel my heart beating
I can feel the butterflies in my stomach
I know what my feelings are already
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Everytme I hear your voice
My heart starts pouding in my chest
It sounds like an Angel singing
You have the most amazing voice ever
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LOVE has never been a four lettered word for me
It has only exsited twice for me
Both times ended with heartbreak
Why is love always so complicated?
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As I sit here looking at the blade
I think about what I am about to do
I think about what all went wrong
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My name is Krista and I am 15. I am bi so that means i like both girls and guys. if you wanna know more than ask for my number so that we can text)
My Addiction
I'm hurting inside
I know what I have to do
It is my addiction
I cant help but not to do it
I turn on my stereo really loud
So that no one will know
I pull out the razor blade
I hold it to my wrist
I see the blood flowing down my arm
It feels so good
but I can feel it burning
the way it hurts is my addiction
I like to feel physical pain more than emotional pain
The blood looks good coming down my arm
I keep cutting to get more blood
Then I put the razor blade down
I take out my bloody towel
I clean off the blood
So no one will see it
And I know that I will do it all again soon
It is my addiction
Dark, but captivating. I appreciated it.