Brittani Martin

Dear friend,
you were my friend for about a year
losing you was my biggest fear,
kissing, flirting, and our play fights
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I never thaught anyone could make me feel this way
Loving you more and more with every passing day
You know how to make me smile and laugh
You are my everything, my other half
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i sometimes wonder how different things would be
if i could have looked ahead and been able to see
how living, not having no childhood
and growing up to fast up to no good
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The emotions in my head making me insane
not knowing how to cope with the anger and pain
it feels like nobody understand me these days
but it seems impossible to help me out anyways
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you might now know this but even not meaning to
but no matter how tough it was you helped me get through
sat their and listened for hours while i rambled on
knowing exactly what to say and staying strong
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she looks in the mirror, ashamed of what looks back
at first sight notices what she lacks,
she isn't pretty nor to bright
and cries herself to sleep each night,
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she goes to school, a smile on her face
no pain can be seen, gone, left, no trace
she sits alone and has no friends
and don't fit in with all the trends
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Its been so long since you went away
No matter how hard i begged for you to stay
And not a day passes that i don't think about you
Or about all the things we went through
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what do you do when everywhere you look all you see is black
what happens when all you ever hear about is what you lack
when no matter how hard you try
you just have to continue living a lie
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I never thaught i'd see the day
where i'd be alone and locked away,
left to think about what i've done
all the problems and pain i've caused everyone,
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Sitting here all alone
words you spoke set in stone
the last ones you ever spoke
now i stand here with my heart all broke
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The demon inside came out of me one day
he told me to tell everyone i cared about to go away
he told me i didn't need anyone but him
we could do it all on our own without them
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