Wouldn'T Say Poem by Clara Diskley

Telling me about your phenomenal day
About how everything always seems
to fall right into place at the right moment
How many outstanding things have happened
in your life
The sound of it makes me feel extremely sad
I'd never say it, but I want to have what your
experiencing
All the time I want to say how badly I need it
Not once have I ever said what I've been dying
to say
I keep it locked within, all bottled up
The meaning of hidding it is of the difference
What if I did say what I'm thinking, would it
make a difference
Would anything actually change, I'd bet you anything
it would stay the same
My heart is telling me what to do, but my conscience
controls what I'm saying
When I'm listening, I stop thinking about everything else
I start to imagine how awe-inspiring it would be
The stunning thing I want to be experiencing