Clara Diskley

My life is nothing special, just the same boring routine
I have a simple life and there's no excitement in that
Although I always think about everything I do
and sometimes I wish I didn't have to
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It's thrilling to look at the cover
Thinking, judging the cover
Just like anyone judges you
It honestly bothers me,
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I feel like I'm silver when I want to be gold
It aggravates me how gold is always better
than silver
Gold is saying when you win you're a champion
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All the time I cannot breathe
It feels as though there's no oxygen
I can't hold my breath any longer
Otherwise I would be giving in to you
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Everyone thinks life is so simple
But its not, maybe to you it is,
but for me its not
Everyday is just another struggle
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At the begining, you were so sweet
Helped me out when I was in doubt
Always stuck by me when things
were difficult
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Observing every single aspect
Listening to what they are saying
Wondering why are these things this way
My outlook is telling me something different
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Feeling pretty lousy when I see your face
I am sorry I cannot be happy for you
I'm acting like I don't care, but trust me
I do
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Slow motion feels the best
So slow that time might even stop
If I go a certain speed my point of
view looks better
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They say that death is one of the hardest things
Everyone says to get over it and move on with your life
But what they dont know is that i cant
I cant just pretend that everything that ever happened to me
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I was there, looking at you,
Knowing it wouldn't last long made
it so hard
It was so hard to know that the time
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I dread how people change
They want to become something
their not
It's all because of what they say
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I could never forget when I met you
Some could forget you, some could say
you're just another person
and someday one of them is going to forget you
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Some times I wish that I could look away.
It's only because at times it terrifying just to look.
I don't want to witness this or remember this.
I wish that things from the past would go away.
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Everyday i learn something new
It's true threw life,
there's always going to be mistakes.
Don't be blue.
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I wish you could see the
real me.
Could this be?
A whole different personality?
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Every years just the same
Right now i have all this fear
It's all so near
The fear is taking over me
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Sometimes i think it's just
bad luck
It starting to frustrate me
I'm suddenly not myself anymore
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Everything you do is so perfect
You're perfect friends, perfect life, perfect job
Compared to me I'm nothing but a failure
I wanna be that girl whose really succeful
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I feel as though I'm the only one
Everyone seems to know what
their doing
And then theres me
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