Wondering Why... Poem by sahar alameddine

i am here again wondering what to write
to express my feelings i know that's right
maybe some tears to shed alone by myself
trying to hold on since u're gone since u left

i know u don't deserve a tear from my eyes
i still remember that day when we became u and i
you left me with this question why?
with ur picture in my head i cannot deny

time has healed some of the marks on my hands
that won't touch anyone any other man
but there's one difficult to heal
a broken heart that longs to feel

i cannot imagine me being with someone else
you own everything in me even my breath
and life without u is more like death
since u're gone nothing has left

are you happy without me?
did you forget our memories?
are you thinking of me?
did you find a new story?

wondering every night asking myself why?
you just haunted my thoughts my dreams and my mind
when i decide to forget about you to move on
i dream of you and once again i can't hold on

i always thought of having this final kiss
this would be my last willing wish
and with a note left beside me on the floor
i will say goodbye i will set free my soul

since you're gone life has no taste no more
since you're gone my heart doesn't want to beat anymore
since you're gone a fake smile has drawn on my face
since you're gone tears has started an unstoppable race

i told you once before i cannot live without you
and you promised to make my dreams come true
but it seems like i'm not yours and you're not mine
forgetting you? something i'll always try

here i am a living ghost wishing to die
on spending the rest of this life wondering why?
maybe everything u said was a lie
and the feelings i had made me blind