Wondering Poem by phillip dalsing

i wonder what life would be like without me
i wonder what life would be like if my mom was not dieing
i wonder about how my life would of been like if i never got takin
got takin from my parents

what lays down below
what lays for my life
what is it good or will i die
i hate not knowing when i will die

i wonder how long tell my mom dies
i wonder when she will give up the drug life
i wonder if my mom loves me
i wonder what is my destiny

as i look at the sky i wish i could fly
fly high not off of drugs
but off of the affiction of getting loved
as i cry i want to die

i wonder when i will no longer live
i wonder if i will live long enough to have a kid
i wonder about how long tell i give
i wonder about how life would be without me

maybe i will die today
or maybe i will live to see another day
who knows all they can do is wonder with me
i'm not one to forget my times by getting tipsy

i wonder if i am loved
i wonder when my dad will leave meth
i wonder if there is a bullet going to pierce my chest
i wonder about my life

do i have to fight to survive
what if i don't want to be alive
what if i want to lie down an die
maybe i will change my life for i do survive

i wonder when destiny will kill me
i wonder if i'll end up back in the penatenchery
i wonder if i will die tonight
i wonder when i will break down and cry

I wonder
I wonder
i wonder
Man do I wonder