Why The Hell Poem by Skye Masen

I knew he was in love with her
deep down inside somewhere
But why did I always hope?
Why did I always search for the light?
I already knew,
It was blindingly obvious
And yet
I just couldn't stop
I was always trying to impress him
Even though I knew he loved her
Even though they're just 'best friends'
Everyone knew
I really hated it
I didn't want to believe
I knew I didn't have a chance
I knew I never had a chance
If you saw the way they walk
talk
the way they look at each other
It fits together
I just didn't wanna face the facts
I ran away from reality
Even though I knew
It would hurt when he told me
I knew what I was getting myself into
Buy what I don't get is...
Why the hell did I do it? !