Why Do I Carry On? Poem by chance topliss

i see these men walk
i see these people talk
i wonder why i try to speak
i wonder why i try to live

why i cant seem to do what they can
why i struggle with life
why they carry on like its nothing
why it seems i am weaker inside then them

this devil that speaks to me tells me who i am
i am a puppet
so i want to think
my actions are not my own

i do not remember the torment that brings me to this world
the hate that sent me in this spiral down
the love that did not exist to bring me back up