Why Can'T I Believe Poem by Kayla August

Why can't I believe when people say my pain going to be over
They say the rain will stop and the sun will start to shine again
But why can't I believe?

People say I'm just having a bad day, and tomarrow will be better
They say learn from my mistakes and use them in the future and everything will be better
But why can't I believe?

People say all my troubles is cause by me, myself, and I
That I'm mentally insane, and I'm driving every one crazy
But why can't I believe?

All around me is so dark, every where I turn is so dark
People say open your eyes and every thing will be clear again
But why can't I believe?

They say it's just a matter of time, just wait, be patient
That every thing will come the way I always dream of
But why can't I believe?

People say I was the one that got my mother ill
And that I'm responsible for my mother separation
They say I'm no good, and no longer needed around
But why can't I believe?

People say stop worry about the past
Stop crying about things I can'nt fixs
Stop hoping and having faith
And stop praying
But why can't I believe?

People say go to church and confess
They say it's just my dirty conscience
And that I'll be just fine
But why can't I believe?

People say this, people say that
People say yes, people say no
They say do it, some say don't
They say I'll pray for you, some say get a life

But why can't I believe what people say?