He Is Alive In Me Poem by Kayla August

I don't want to remember him as being dead
he is still alive in all the promises I've kept
Even in pain his eyes sparkle and shine
I wasn't able to touch or hug him, to let him know how important he was in my life. I don't want to remember the pain he felt because of my stupidity, memories of a horrible night can't fade away.

You were an awesome guy, why you had to die? In my heart I'm the reason for us to be apart, I'm the reason for your three kids not to have a dad.The day of your wake and funeral your body was with them but your spirit stayed in the hospital with me. Two days after your funeral you left me all alone...Last thing you said to me was ' It won't be long' what was that supposed to mean? I ask the Lord above, to answer my prayers.That you would come back.But, that wouldn't be fair because he want time with you.

Sitting here thinking about you on a Saturday night
I here you call my name
I turn around with a smile thinking I would see you again
but you weren't there, I just heard your voice.
I glance across the room, to see if anyone else hears it too
I saw the chain I was wearing on my bed before our car wrecked
I walk towards it and it disappears, bro are you playing games?
I miss you so much, I keep telling you, But you don't seem to hear me.

All I do is think about you, how comes you don't come around no more?
I hear you, so very gently say,
'I love you', 'Good- Bye! '
'Bye', I said...
I turn my head to see if anyone notices you or hear what you said
Then I turn back, and you're gone.
Only if God could see, how he could of turned out to be
Alcohol was the cause, He was wrong and broke the law
He wasn't the only one to pay, I still cry up to this day.
Why won't the sorrow disappear?
Why can't I stop shedding the tears? ...It's been a year!