Why? Poem by ally lira

why did i let you hurt me?
and take that one thing i wanted to keep
why did you call me just for that?
you knew i would do anything for you.
the sad thing is
i knew what you wanted to do.
you took my virginity
the one thing that made me pure
you tookk away gods gift to me
i dont know what i should do
you said you wanted to finish what we started
but im in too much pain right now.
it must have been a sight
to see us standing there
it felt like you guys were wolves
hungry, determined and big.
while i was like the little deer
shivering through my knees.
scared, innocent, and alone.
ill never see the world
ever the same again.
but while you were inside of me
i didnt think of you
i thought of my ex
abd wondered if he was thinking of me too.
you asked me what was going on inside of my head
and i just simply told you
you dont want to know
if i could go back
into time
i honestly dont know if i would.