What If? Poem by Nez Nut

What if you had a gun at your head
Ready to blow
Youre given a free wish of anything before you go

Love, money, death, life
Which would you choose
So that you'd survive
You closed ur eyes ur world went dark
you thought to yourself
' if theres one wish i had i wish i could change my life'

I wish to not grow up bad or my mother didn't beat me when she's sad

I wish my dad didn't leave on my 5th birthday
Or my aunt to kill my uncle on the same damn day

I wish i had a brother who cared for me
But all he wanted was to see how much of use i could be

I wish i had a wife who didn't leave my life
Now i'm hollow and alone, its just me and my knife

I wish i had grown a heart
So that i wouldn't stop that old man's heart
Stole his asthma meds i did
To prove to my friends that i'm a man indeed
Not knowing this dear old senior would soon meet his great grand daddy

Now here i stand with the gun in my hand
One wish i had, what should it be?
I wish to press the trigger
i wish it would hurt
I'm sorry everyone
I guess i should be gone
At least my life won't get any worse.