What Did I Do This Time? Poem by forever gone

What did I do this time?
why did I have to mess this up?
I swear, I am sorry.
I didn't know
that I still had a chance
you told me you wouldn't
that you couldn't.
how could I have known?
I would have been on my best behavior.
I was upset;
my sister doesn't remember what I told her,
she doesn't remember my past.
she had an accident, I'm sorry, I was on edge.
my little boy,
my buddy,
almost went away.
thats all I can say.
its not an excuse,
for doing what I did.
I just want you to understand,
I'm sorry.