Turn For The Worse Poem by Scarlet .....

a wake up call
one I never saw coming
I gave in to the craving
I never thought this would happen
for it never even crossed my mind
for I did not go deep
so why did this happen
why did I fall
why did I start to shake
why did my world just fade away
I didn’t even notice until it was all over
damn I was so wrong
I thought this would help me
I thought it would release my pain
but instead
it did a turn for the worse
it scared me
more than I have ever been scarred before
it made me realize just how alone I am
for when this happened
all I wanted was someone to be there
someone to break down to
someone to tell me I will survive
someone to turn to
and I turned and realized I have no one there
no one to turn to
for I am alone
utterly alone