Truth Poem by philip mtange

I have doubted the truth of my undertaking a thousand fold
I moved from the shadows of my ignorance
And was blinded by the light of truth
The reality of my life was naught but plain imagery
Now I stand imprisoned by the truth that I can no longer face.

I have pursued truth over the years with zeal and endless vigour
I have beckoned at echoes of the truth and flashes of reality
And when I finally gained the strength to the face up to it
My courage crumbled and dissipated
And the truth massacred by soul.

My courtship with truth was thrilling and exciting
Flashes of the memory still crisscross my mind
The Romance was mind bogging
I alienated myself from the rest of society
Who content themselves with imagery and echoes of the truth
But the truth is now like a slow poison
Permitting the very essence of my existence
And threatening to stifle the life out of me.

The truth set me on a frightening journey
Confusing breaks and endless stop-overs
I have mused over the frustrations of that journey
The Resolutions to become the master of my life and to know myself in depth
I have endured self-deception, prejudice and my shortcomings
But the final actualization of the truth shattered my soul.

I have been prompted only by truth, …………………… many years
And strengthened my resolve that fear belongs to the slave
But the recognition that …………… just am……………… not the hero
Is a loss.