Toiletpaper Poem by Mark Hopwood

As I look into the deepest corners of my mind
All I find is pain and lies
From corner to corner sorrow stands
And ghosts of the past hold my head in their hands
As I play mind games with myself.

Digging up ghosts and clinging to emptiness
Shouting for someone who'll never hear
Can't wait any longer for someone who cares
As the last breath of life just stands and stares
Into the abyss.

I don't feel I am
or I maybe I feel but i'm not
maybe i don't know, maybe i do
But i need someone to care for me
the way I care for you.

The weight of the stone pushes me down
Deeper and deeper into my hole
Waiting for the earth to cover over me
And for the worms to chew at my soul
As dispare washes over me.

Hate and love swirl together in me
Spinning around like a mighty hurricane
Suddenly they open up and reveal emptiness
And I'm back on the pointless road again
Looking for a car to jump under.