This Disease Poem by Amanda May Moore

once
I built a wall
guarding my heart
built to fall
apart

once
I stood tall
you held me tight
and we continue
this fight

once
I knew not peace
with my soul
and in my heart
to learn is my goal

once
I have loved
but I knew not
what I talked of
so I forgot

once
I dove off with
no difference
between yes and no
thrown off my fence

once
I fell over
with no hope
to be slippery
like soap on a rope

once
I was like the river
in winter
silent and frozen
over

once
I believed in luck
carrying it in a locket
with a clover
lost forever
in my dreams
of a past

once
I thought
I could paint the sky
If I had a ladder
I'd try

once
Passion slammed a
Book on the table.
she shook me
unstable

once
I threw belief in love
in a bag, tied it up
put it in a closet
alongside the
collection of dust

once
this disease looked
over me, I lost sight
teaching me trust
wandering in the dark
hidden was the mark
written on my heart.

once
you looked at me
I received
an invite from God
giving light
into His heart
and mine

once
I've fallen apart
not knowing myself
not loving myself
left with nothing

once
I considered
forever and ever
thinking myself
clever

once
I was not certain
that I could be
loved

once
I found it all
after I heard His call
I regained my eyes
and saw affection

once
I was afraid
with a debt
unpaid

once
I read of a seed
put an end
to all I did not
need

once
I learned of the
bright Son
something inside
begun

once
I decided not to die
to get off the ground
and try

once
I called check
only to find out
it was not the end
yet

once
I learned I missed
this disease
opening my heart I had
left in the closet
fallen apart

once
I knew what to do and
I could only think of
you

once
passion came into
my life, I had to
surrender

for once
I let myself become
tangled, in faith
for my trouble

for once
I believed I began
to paint what was held in
locked away, stored for years
a foreign land

for once
I let this disease out,
God shared with me
a secret, gave me His hand

for once
I was humbled in
facility

once
I knew this secret
I began to dance,
the change

once
I had been pried
open to live
in this love so thick
my heart was heavy
with prayer

once
I met Love
and He gave me
a warm hug

since
I contracted this disease
never have I felt so blessed.
this disease will have no rest
this disease has taught
me to show love
and how to see Him.
passion is the name of
this disease, and I'd like
for you to meet her
please.