The Truth Hidden In The Heart Poem by nicky joyce

Wanting to walk with you holding your hand
Staring at my feet not touching the ground
The emotions I feel lost and hid
Trying to fool myself trying to kid
Great friends laughing with such joy
Speaking effortlessly about any old toil
That's the kind of friends which is you and me
No moaning no strings attached
General chatting you know this and that
Is it really normal is there not more
Why do I feel there's a trapped door
Looking around seeing people smile
Glaring at them taking everything in their stride
Jealous sometimes yep that's me
Why do I do it um because I'm me
Feeling safe relaxed and calm
Forgetting everything just somewhere unharmed
Living the life and having fun
No one around no one to stun
Holding out for that certain glance
Taking a breath to make sure I don't say anything out loud
Thinking maybe you are pretty sound
Pinching myself everyday making sure your there
making sure it don't all fade
Stopping and thinking dead in my tracks
About random stuff maybe its tat
Staring into space searching for a star
One to wish on with all my heart
Thinking maybe say goodbye
Can't do it though feels like I would die