The Silence Is Killing Me Poem by Nqubeko chase Sithole

It's louder than your voice when you call me
It's louder than your love when it called me the first time
This silence is like heat in my heart that shadrack, MIshack and Abednego couldn't burn in because it's too attached to the way I feel and think about
like they did with God.

This silence is stronger that you loving me, that's if you really do.
It makes me remember why we fell for each other, maybe we did for the wrong reason and now it's kicking back to reality when you start ignoring me. The survival of this silence is by a pen and paper, those two seem to be the only things that understand me because they make m express my true emotions about how this silence kills me when I'm alone in this love.

This silence kills me to an extent that I end up fighting alone in this relation whilst we both in it.
It kills me to a point where I feel weak and miserable like I do not need love while I'm still crazy in love with you.
I stopped writing poetry when I fell in love with you thinking maybe it's time I lived poetry, but now I find myself writing more and better than before because when this silence kicks in, I find myself alone in this crazy world with a pen and paper in hand.

Until I overcome this silence, I pray it remains silently loud. I'm willing you ignore it until the day you decide to tell me you don't love me anymore. Until then, I'll hold on to this pen and paper for the day I'm lonely again, its softer than the silence you give.