Nqubeko chase Sithole

I still loved you but couldn't be with you.
I couldn't be with you because I had to leave you
I had to leave you because I had found someone I really love
I had found someone I truly love so I had to leave you.
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Take me back to where it all began
Take me back to the first of where we ran
Take me back to Africa, where I see the diverse culture's falling in love
With their beautiful difference's.
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She stood like it was her last pose
She smiled like it was her last beautiful thing she had.
Her sharp eyes towards the camera ‘'I smile''
It was her confidence behind the pictures.
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As the sun sets and the moon rise,
Our eyes begin to see clearer
Our ears become fluent, ''as it plays''
We begin to dance to it.
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HER TEARS
They run in the mist of her eyes.
When she cries, they become very dark.
They never match with sunrise; neither do they match with sunset.
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It's louder than your voice when you call me
It's louder than your love when it called me the first time
This silence is like heat in my heart that shadrack, MIshack and Abednego couldn't burn in because it's too attached to the way I feel and think about
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Spare me the lectures, I've had enough.
I've talked, no one heard me
I've laughed; no one could see it's not real
I've had enough, I just want to die.
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A definition of diary is complex and excessive
I compare it to the definition of love and life
(Someday it will end) .
Aurora's diary was thick and beautiful but full of sad and miserable thoughts,
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Dear Cecile, our dream is finally coming out in the evening
It has always been enclosed by these dark nights and small brains.
We've been waiting almost our whole life and might have waited until it never came.
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What if the lights went off, would we be still able to see each other? What if I stopped talking to you, would you be still be able to tell me you love me? What if I stopped loving you, would you be still able to tell me you love me? What if I stopped singing to you, would you still want to make love to me? What if I died tonight, would you still love in the morning? What if I decided not to die, would you stay with me forever?

U remind me of the women in poetry, I love them, I love them. They cry deep into their souls and execute the thought of love. They express their pain in tears while they recite and continue to recite. They shout out so that their voice will be heard, and they smile because they have said what they wanted to say. Their skin changes with mixed emotions, ohm, how I love them. They think deeper than the ocean, visualise higher than the sky. They are deep, "I love them". They show poetry in a form of heaven, sort of a religion.
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This is a submission to integrity; it’s an honour to pleasure. It’s a bow after a great speech that had over a minute of applause and a continuation of a great story that once happened in the 21st century. It is a letter of appreciation and honour due to too much pain caused by commitment and engagement. It is a story of sin that turned into a blessing like human do when they receive Jesus Christ as their lord and saviour. It is a thank you within a thank you of a man.

Thank you for understanding me and loving me. Your short term appreciation was a long term love to remember. Unlike any other man, I have no qualities or characteristics of a woman I want to be with and that I love. You came to my life and completed a puzzle that never existed. You changed me and made me a man who loved somebody, as young as I was; I really and truly loved you. Ill speak my mind, express my heart and show the pain i felt for you to understand and not understand. This is an understatement theory of lust of which God disapproves of in his word of life [BIBLE], that’s why I write to thank you for leaving me just to be with him. I would’ve hated you or cursed you, but instead I prayed for you and wished you luck. If I had cursed you, than I would have lied when I told you I love you, because even though we not together anymore, I still wish you the best that I had wished you when we were still together as lovers.
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My heart alone needs peace; it took me a while to stop loving you.
No space for thoughts, no heart to love and no hate to even remember you.
I was too deep into you, but on my way back you were already gone with someone else.
I guess it took you to draw yourself on someone else’s heart to realise you no longer belong to mine.
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Dear death, I'm sorry I had to come earlier than I was supposed to; I had too many problems on earth so I had to escape. You were my only option; I've always seen you as the soul survivor because every lost and tired soul comes to you.
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Like water in a glass, your eyes are full of tears.
How I wish I could face my fears and forget about my pears.
This pain seems to be in my heart but I find comfort in my eyes.
For I am innocent and hurt in love,
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I hear these voices that convince me how much I love you
I come these senses that remind me how much I miss you when you not around.
My body shivers as I imagine your sweet kisses, your soft touch, your beautiful looks,
You're innocent eyes and your beautiful caramel skin.
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Sometimes I just want to be alone and cry
Think of all the good things you did in your youth
Think of you when you were still young,
Lonely and sad.
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