The Second Poem by Estefano Molina

It was late in the summer
I had been around town and back
I knew my ways
wasn't happy
but it kept me from going insane
you had asked your friend about me
I was still a kid then
20 years young
living a fast life
from the moment I saw you
I thought, me? seriously?
You were something else though
I still believe that
I asked for a kiss that same night I met you
you threw yourself at me
as if we were past lovers
you told me some great stories
I made up a few to impress you
but to my surprise
you caught me in every lie
so I told you the truth
we sat outside
while everyone got drunk inside
we talked for hours it seemed

You were a college girl
I was a bum
no direction
probably still the same
but I liked reading
and writing
as well as pretending to play guitar
a learned bum I say
you used to drive from Nacadoches just to see me
you cared for me
my parents loved you
We shared many nights together
just you and I
talking and laughing at everyone
we lived in our world
for close to a year we shared the same bed
and for that whole year
I could not believe it
a girl like you
laying next to a bum like me


I was a fool
as always
I let the distance get to me
My ways caught up to me
I broke your heart
You caught me in my biggest lie
You weren't the only one
but you never shed a tear
I'm glad you didn't
I wasn't worth it
The scum of the Earth
was what I was
You looked at me with disgust
You said everything with your eyes
And with your eyes you destroyed
what I was
and what I had been
what I would be

The last time I saw you
you sat on the bed
I was to move with you that summer
to start our life together
but our plans came to ruins
You sat there with your head down
disappointed in me
and heartbroken
I couldn't brake character
I was me as usual
but inside I was dying
I wanted to hold you a little longer
You told me that you had to go
they were waiting for you outside
I sat there without saying a word to you
just taking one last good look at you
seeing this beautiful woman
walk away from me
and I thought I'd better get used to this sight
I don't know where you are now
but I only wish you the best
and hope that love finally finds you
because you deserve it
for all what you have been through
As for me, second chances thrown away
that's for sure