The Girl Who Used To.. Poem by Jessica Hastings

The girl who used to look
in every mirror, window, glass...
to find a reflection of herself
to see if she still looked good
while laughing with her friends

The girl who used to stare
at guys
hoping one of them would notice her
while laughing with her friends

The girl who used to party
was seen
as the most perfect girl
while laughing with her friends

The girl who used to do this
can't look in any mirror anymore
she is afraid of the reflection
she is afraid to burst in tears in public
while walking alone

The girl who used to do this
doesn't look at boys anymore
because you can see the sadness in her lovely eyes
boys don't like sad girls
that's something you should know

The girl who used to do this
lost all her friends
she made herself believe that she is better off without them
but now she discovers her own lie

The girl who used to feel alive
is now dead inside
faking happiness
for over a year

The girl who used to be the best
now pretends like she's the best
Because she feels like the worst
did you know she was depressed?