Survival Mode Set On Hard Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Lone airs astute
Off balanced, tilted
Slippery, guile embedded
But I still get by
Life is one big surprise
But I still get by



How?
No idea
Just is
What it is not
Pertaining towards
Confusion
But I still get by




Grey skies
But I still get by
Being as strong
As I could ever be
Sometimes it hurts
But I still get by




Ugliness
Pain
Judgement
Games
But I still get by
I still get by
I still get by
I still get by




Digging deeper as I go
Hoping there is a place these feelings will go
Cannot hide, Sick of being denied
Stronger self-reflection
Inner endless search
So hard to find
But I still get by




Clutching my pillow
As if I was holding, another me, and I
Getting on by
Dreams are mirages
But I still get by



Nobody knows
Or thinks they know too much
Have they ever seen silent cries?
Seasonal depression
The sun's vacation away from the north
Goodbye, it seems too long
But I must stay strong
And still get by
Yes, I shall still get on by




Fate has a funny way of teaching us lessons in life



I move on to fight another battle, not winnable yet
Yet, what kills me makes me stronger
I want to do more than just get by
I deserve a much better life



Hear my cries for hope
Hear them aloud
They are mine
They are all mine


Emotions wear heavy
Especially when they are all over the place



But I stay strong
Get on by
Still get by
I am my own
Feel trapped at times
But I still get by




Someday, I will get by
More than I do today
With all my faith installed
Fears defied
Dreams abided
I will surely get on by




I keep slipping and sliding
Falling and falling
Gaining more bruises each time
But the pain will make me tougher in the end
When I have finally surely gotten on by




Lone airs astute
Off balanced, tilted
Slippery, guile
But I still get by
Life is one big surprise
But I still get by



My mantra is set
These dreams bestowed
Of wonder and imagination
Feelings so strong in light
Things that will always inspire me to get on by




Each day I lessen this fear
Slowly taking flight
So someday I can soar in the air
Taking myself everywhere
Going beyond than just getting by




Solitude, you have grounded me enough
Now it's time to fly towards brand new heights




I will not just get by
I will fly beyond the boundaries
Of myself towards a brand new life




I have claimed defiance many times before
But this time I will no longer sit back and just get by
I shall discipline myself
Towards a brand new life




The future is mine
The sky is clear
The stars are bright
Fighting with all that I have ever had
To prove to myself
That I will do much more than get on by




This is important
This is my life
And I will do more than to get on by



From here on out
This is my mantra, my battle cry
My heart, mind, and soul my all fortified



It took me long enough times to die several times
Each time worse than the last
But here I am, surviving the trials of my life



To this day on out I grow stronger knowing
That I will always survive!




The pride of a stronger me from the inside, new found pride!




No worries please
No sorrow here



All is alright

In the end I always end up surviving




It's better to battle the demons of false hope
Then succumb to dying inside



This lesson I have learned
The lesson that keeps teaching me
That through the dark
My future will be brighter
Than ever, of all time
In my entire life




No matter how bad it gets
My faith grows stronger knowing
That I will always survive!




Pain, I shall defy inside
Always surviving
In the never ending evolution of my life




I am strong, I will always survive!




I am alive!
Yes, I am truly alive!

Indeed!