I stare into your eyes and I'm in a trance,
lets let go of innocence.
I am unable to hold myself back any longer,
I press myself against your lips.
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I can inhale what alters my mind,
but we all know that I'm not fine..
I tried so hard, but lost it all-
this misery can't be erased with time.
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I'm missing your touch and all we had,
I'm so sorry for makin you sad,
making you angry and gettin you mad;
I long for the love that we used to have.
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I remember when I used to fake my smile;
consumed by misery, but in denial.
I recall the dark nights when I'd mutilate my body
where nobody could see,
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I look in the mirror and my eyes consume me,
I'm lost in a void seeking the person i should be.
I once knew the girl, but she cowered, she ran;
far from this place I've created, far from these destructive hands.
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I just wanna lay in someones arms all night and let them hold me,
not go home to a house of hate and parents who scold me.
But I throw away the best of things,
forget the most important peoples names-
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I push away your accusations;
say what you want dear, I will not listen..
All the time i spent on you is now wasted;
how could I put myself in this position.?
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I'm wasting my life spending it without you,
I try and pull myself out but I just can't move.
I'm lost in my heartache-
this sorrow so true..
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Off the tip of your tongue and from your mouth
your rancid accusations degrade me.
I try and push them away and block them out
from all that I'm contemplating.
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The scarlet liquid shimmered in the moonlight;
her helpless, devoured body lie limp in the secure shadows..
With hands shaking, the knife drops to the frosted winter floor and
her deceitfulness lives on no more..
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