Saving Me Poem by Samantha Myers

Lost in this jungle called something I don’t know. I want something more. Something worthwhile. Change me, fix me, transform me please, I beg you.
I washed the dirt off my pale skin. I watched as I strayed from the path meant for me. I look back on the last month and realize it was all a lie, or at least most of it was a lie anyway.
I scramble to my feet and then fall back down again.
All my nightmares are in my head, torturing me, on the brink of death.
I didn’t fully understand what I was doing when I did it. I just wanted to be gone, off this bloody earth, away from all the pain, all the troubles, all the lies. No voice could reach me. No sense of care was able to persuade me from swallowing death.
If I could I would go back in time, I’d shut my ears to his lies, banish his voice, and close my heart so I wouldn’t fall in love.
They all say don’t wait too long for love and don’t be afraid to tell someone. But, is it worth all the pain I felt?
Follow me to the edge of the earth, clasp your hand in mine, roll in the flowers of the meadows.

01.19.10