Ribbon Of Happiness Poem by Leah Ayliffe

I have all these ideas inside my head that I'm scared of breathing.
Tripping into the darkness I've known my whole life seems like a cowardly next move after finding a real way to be happy.
Things so good cannot stay real,
Cannot survive in a cruel world for long.
When daydreams you thought only existed in the mind bleed into life, how do you accept it as anything other than temporary?
How can it float above the fear of things going back to the way it was before.
You fell down my rabbit hole. The darkness and light going back and forth like a flicker that enables seizures. You're still standing.
I guess the tragedy lies in how you now have someone who is yours. I'm just a floating angel, a special moon, but never your girl.
I laugh because perhaps I am the closest thing.
I've always been a lone dreamer drunk on sadness.
Solitude was a true love of mine,
A silence in the late evening listening to the stars tell me to believe everything is alright.
I'd rather not be compared to everyone around me,
That would kill me like nothing else.
See what I've done?
I've done what I've learned before not to do.
I've gone and tied my ribbon of happiness around you.
See what I've done?