Regain? ? ..Restand.... Poem by Adroit Angel

I open my eyes,
in the mid of the night
a sudden thought, striking my life
am i to regret, those things i've done?
to escape those nightmares, i have to run
not from my home, but from those shadows
that can darken, the greenest of meadows
the shadows have done so much harm
to my life, organized like a tiny farm
can i ever recover, from the hurricane that blew
can i regain, the happiness that flew
far from my life, far from my reach
crossing the crystal, white sandy beach
i look around my broken home
with my own hands, can i reform
the broken down walls, the blown off roof
stamped flat down, with a horses hoof
bleeding blood from my heart, rolling tears from my eyes
lightening striking, rain drops falling from the dark skies
causing shadows above my life
down on me, will the sun ever shine.......?