Pitch Black Sunsets Poem by Brett White

Even the sunsets seem pitch black without you,
And the only colour I have felt is blue.
I watch the rain cascade gently on me,
I solemnly contemplate destiny.
I wonder how and why you were wrest from me,
Are you really gone for eternity?
Each night brings nightmares deep inside my sleep,
Our moments within your heart do you keep?
I pray for salvation every single day,
I pray for the despair to go away.
Lying half-asleep tears roll down my face,
Lying to myself, thinking I can replace
My closest friend who is so far away,
But dark night seems to overcome each day.
What could I have done to have avoided this fate?
Depression seems to engulf me as of late.
In its clutches my Spirit always seems to be,
Will the healing light of God ever find me?
O God, please allow me the smallest bit of grace,
And in my dreams let me again glimpse her face.
My prayers for mercy flow from me,
O God, for my sins can you please forgive me?
In vain I search my books for a solution,
Or just a healing salve, maybe a potion,
To shake this grief found deep inside of me,
Yet I fear it will stay eternally.
Infernally my moods forever fall,
Because you would not answer should I call.
Crawl in darkness is all I seem to do,
I'd crawl through Hades if I could reach you.
I tried so long, clinging unto lost hope,
Akin to a life ending by a rope.
Because loving you was always suicide,
I'll never know why our love has died.
Years apart and miles away, faithful I stayed,
Our memories in my head are replayed.
Don't you know time passes at such a clip,
That before long we're both a sinking ship,
Holding fast to life as it slips away,
And that each day apart is a wasted day.