One Step Too Far Poem by Danny The Dreamer Boyd

As I lie awake staring at a twinkling star;
I stop and take a step down memory lane:
To see all black bricks and one bright scar,
That lightens my darkness and eases my pain.

And oh it is what keeps me going,
Night after night, and day after day.
And oh I no more fear what I'm doing;
But the only color I see now is gray.

Gray and I the one who walks alone;
Will miss all of my years of yore:
When all out of the window's thrown,
And I still can't glimpse what's in store.

As I lie awake staring at a twinkling star;
I hate to admit that everything was only in vain,
So I bite my lips: to let not the pretty memories mar;
And slap myself: to rise right back up again.

And then I pushed a little harder,
Not knowing my goal or aim;
And all of a sudden all was brighter:
The same was all the same.

So I walked on and continued to speak;
Then stopped for a moment and started to listen:
To what had to be said; and what's at stake,
Paled in comparison to what I've been missin'.

As I lie awake staring at a twinkling star;
I think of all the things that seem no longer sane,
And what lingers still is nothing but bizarre,
So I try to break away, and till today I still strain.

And then I watched the sun slowly go down,
And with the little hope that remained;
I've hanged on for dear life, and in a swound,
I fell and woke the next day: and nothing I have gained.

A few words just won't suffice,
To tell my tiresome journey that lasted too long;
And with the vain mirage that did entice:
My wet behind the ears senses, then all went wrong.

As I lied awake staring at a twinkling star;
I looked back in time and plenty I did sustain,
And sadly knew I was One Step Too Far,
From my long lost dreams that afar did remain.